Sarah’s Sight

Now reader, what I’m about to write may not be a big deal to you, but it is to me…I love wearing glasses. Glasses are a part of my face; a part of my being. So, here’s the news…

I’m getting new glasses…IN TWO DAYS!! 

Yup. Aaaah!! After 4 hours, in over four different opticians last week, I FINALLY found comfort in two frames in Specsavers. (I’m so thankful that I did this last week! This week, I’ve been flopped on the sofa poorly! Booooo!)

I LOVE the frames that I’ve chosen for my next stage in life. They’re comfortable, big and suit me. My current specs have unfortunately gone a bit rusty and I felt like I needed a change before I get married next year. (WHOOP!) 🙂

Even though I’m happy and relieved to have finally found new specs, I can’t stop but feel a little nostalgic about my current specs. So let’s talk about it… (Blogging helps the grieving process, ya know?)

You see, when I was eleven, I was relieved that I needed glasses. I had started to think that I was stupid for not being able to see the board at school, or for not being able to work out if someone in the distance was walking towards me or away from me.

Even though I loved the fact that I could see things, between the ages of eleven to eighteen, I rarely allowed people to take photographs of me with glasses on. I just thought my face looked silly, and looking back, I unfortunately still feel that way. The frames just weren’t right. So, I made a change.

At the age of nineteen, just before I started my second year of university, I got my current glasses and I adored them. For the past 4 and a half years, I have felt comfortable and ‘me’ in these glasses. From the very first day of owning them, I wore them in photographs and have been so proud of them.

Whilst wearing these glasses, I…

  • Discovered what it means to have true friends
  • Gave presentations, wrote tales and analysed literature at undergraduate level
  • Moved to Winchester for my final year at university
  • Wrote my 10k dissertation
  • Graduated with a 2.1 degree
  • Started my first full time job

And now here comes the soppier stuff. Whilst wearing these glasses, I…14448947_10154612470163478_3871339920353988259_n

  • Found a best friend
  • Fell in love
  • Braved it and had my first kiss
  • Went on lots of dates and continued to fall in love
  • Got engaged to Scott in Rome

(All in this order!)

Nerdyness and joy; perfect examples of what my life has been like since putting on these specs all of those years ago.

I am so thankful that these glasses helped me to love who I am. They have been part of ‘me’ for a long time and I’m so grateful. I will always be so fond of them, and will certainly not be getting rid of them. However, the time has come for a change. It’s not a very drastic change, in fact, I bet the majority won’t even see a difference! All the same, I’m excited for my new, fresh look that’ll feature in our engagement photo shoot with our wedding photographer in a few weeks – yay! 🙂

As a final note, to those who dislike their appearance, remember that you are unique. Truly unique and wonderful.

Embrace your face; frames or no frames.

• Why Can’t Life Be Like A Film?

narnia1I am such a film geek. I love immersing myself in character’s stories and adventures. I often wish that I was, too, a character in these films as life would just be that little bit simpler and cooler.

C. S. Lewis’ character, Lucy, for example, who features in The Lion, The Witch and The WardrobePrince Caspian and The Voyage of the Dawn Treader has a whale of a time! Yes, she can be a tad irritating, BUT, she goes on the best adventures, gets to CUDDLE Aslan and is super cool as she is transported to the incredible fantasy world of Narnia, escaping boring England. SHE ALSO GETS TO HANG OUT WITH MR TUMNUS AND THE BEAVERS. Gahh. SO fun.

Also, Anna from Frozen… She befriends a talking snowman (who is hilarious), can eat chocolate all of the time in her palace and still has an incredible figure…THEN she finds a man who loves her for who she is as soon as she meets him!! (This is Kristoff, by the way, not Hans. He’s a turd.)

Characters in films are flipping loving life. There is barely any mention of student finance, rent, jobs, essays or taxes in films. (Not in Fantasy or Disney movies anyway!) Yet, my heart and mind are troubled so much by these things. As a student who is about to graduate, I feel swamped by pressure to be successful. Pressure of finding a job, earning enough money to do things I enjoy, finding a place to live and pressure to be content. I worry that I won’t be content in life. For my heart yearns for certain things – things that I have yearned for for many years and yet they have not happened. My impatience for such things makes me doubt myself. I worry whether I’m good enough or not. I also get irritated with God, for He knows my heart’s desires, but such things have not happened.

However, a change of mindset is definitely in order! Our lives may not be as fun or as exciting as Lucy’s or Anna’s, but we can certainly try. An extremely wise woman once told me, “Sarah, your life is not going to be boring. Your life is a story. There is a whole chapter that awaits. It’s going to be new and exciting to read.”

Perhaps create a literal, visual timeline of your life. Write down how far you’ve come; your personal achievements, attributes you love about yourself and people you’ve met along the way. Keep adding to this and see how the chapters of your life unfold.

If your heart is troubled and you feel let down, don’t be disheartened, for there are good things to come. God has a plan for your life and He has the perfect timing for your journey. For it says in Proverbs 16:9 that, ‘The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.’ 

So, to be content for NOW, rather than constantly worrying about being content in the future; find joy in each day. Do more of what fills you with pure joy. As Phillip Phillips sings in his song, ‘Raging Fire’: “Hold on to what makes you feel // Don’t let go [of it], it’s what makes you real.” 

Atomnd, as a final motivational statement, here is a line from another one of my favorite films, Cast Away. Tom Hanks says this: “I gotta keep breathing. Because tomorrow the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring?”

Be excited. Because, you are an exciting individual, with an exciting future.

• Life.

Gosh, life.

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Life is bizarre. Life is challenging. Life can be annoying. Life is full of those brilliant moments of pure joy that you eagerly want to grasp onto. Like, when you’re having an incredible laughing fit, or when you meet a brilliant person for the first time.

In one of my very favourite films, Forrest Gump, (with the wonderful Tom Hanks in – what a chap!!) Forrest’s mother says to him, “Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you’re gonna get.” Well, this is pretty true. (Although, I’m unsure whether the chocolate thing is true. Because, there is always a little booklet inside those boxes indicating which chocolate is which…but hey ho, for the sake of the analogy, stick with me.) Life is just so random and it can be hard to see what is coming next. God constantly chucks things my way and it’s so challenging BUT FUN!

I’m in a place where I’m about to finish university. I’ve learnt SO much over the past three years. I’ve really got to understand who I am and how I, and we all, have a part to play in this very crazy, wonderful world. We all need those people in life who bring us joy when we’re low or those people who are really wise or even those who you can have the nerdiest conversations with. We’re all an odd bunch in the box of chocolates. Some people are nutty, some are fruity and some can appear plain, BUT they are in fact the most interesting ones who have the best fillings, but you need to look past the surface to see how amazing they are.

The immediate future is also bizarre and is a tad daunting for me. I have lots of essays to write, a FAT presentation to prepare for and the almighty dissertation (or “Final Year Trump” as I like to call it) to complete ready for the 1st April. THEN, I have to try and sort my life out and get a full time job! Golly.

To throw another cliche in here, Ronan Keating once sung that “Life is a rollercoaster!” I actually just shuddered writing that. Ha! CRINGE! However, it’s true. I’ve gone from my comfortable life where I mess around, have lots of fun with my pals and, of course, write many essays, to a point where life is about to change and might get a tad scary!

My dream one day is to be a Secondary School English teacher. That’s what I’m aspiring to be. But actually, life is way more than ‘what I’m going to do after university’. It’s about growing in yourself, growing your identity and ultimately loving who you have been made to be! The most exciting thing I constantly discover is how God is using me in other’s lives, understanding what my giftings are and how I can use these to help others. I am LOVING learning about myself and I believe this will continue to happen, which is so fun!

But, I fear that my primary school nickname of ‘Worrying White’ might come back soon as I am still nervous about the future; I regularly doubt myself and my abilities. Am I meant to be a teacher? If so, will I be good enough? Do I have the strength each day to appear extroverted in front of a bunch of teenagers, whereas inside I’m longing to be back in bed by myself, away from the world? However, these thoughts are silly. Because, ultimately, I need to trust in the ‘Big G’ as He has a plan for my life and I don’t need to fear, for each random situation that life has thrown my way has made me the person I am today and will help me in any future job I may have. He planned it all long ago!

What I’m trying to say is, if life seems rather daunting and you don’t know what decision to make, just believe in yourself. As Winnie the Pooh says, “You’re braver than you believe, stronger than you seem and smarter than you think.” LISTEN TO MR POOH! He knows what he’s talking about! And, all of those people in life’s box of chocolates are there to help you within all of this.

Also, if you’re struggling with the thought of the future, think about what your motivation is for getting up each day. Mine has always been this: To show God’s love by bringing joy to someone’s day and make at least one person smile. So, have a think about what yours might be and how you can fit that motivation into your life.

You can do it. You really can. Just smile, hold your head up and crack on. You’ll be great. 🙂

“Live with what you have now and make the best of what’s to come.” – Phillip Phillips, ‘Tell Me A Story’.