Life is bizarre. Life is challenging. Life can be annoying. Life is full of those brilliant moments of pure joy that you eagerly want to grasp onto. Like, when you’re having an incredible laughing fit, or when you meet a brilliant person for the first time.
In one of my very favourite films, Forrest Gump, (with the wonderful Tom Hanks in – what a chap!!) Forrest’s mother says to him, “Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you’re gonna get.” Well, this is pretty true. (Although, I’m unsure whether the chocolate thing is true. Because, there is always a little booklet inside those boxes indicating which chocolate is which…but hey ho, for the sake of the analogy, stick with me.) Life is just so random and it can be hard to see what is coming next. God constantly chucks things my way and it’s so challenging BUT FUN!
I’m in a place where I’m about to finish university. I’ve learnt SO much over the past three years. I’ve really got to understand who I am and how I, and we all, have a part to play in this very crazy, wonderful world. We all need those people in life who bring us joy when we’re low or those people who are really wise or even those who you can have the nerdiest conversations with. We’re all an odd bunch in the box of chocolates. Some people are nutty, some are fruity and some can appear plain, BUT they are in fact the most interesting ones who have the best fillings, but you need to look past the surface to see how amazing they are.
The immediate future is also bizarre and is a tad daunting for me. I have lots of essays to write, a FAT presentation to prepare for and the almighty dissertation (or “Final Year Trump” as I like to call it) to complete ready for the 1st April. THEN, I have to try and sort my life out and get a full time job! Golly.
To throw another cliche in here, Ronan Keating once sung that “Life is a rollercoaster!” I actually just shuddered writing that. Ha! CRINGE! However, it’s true. I’ve gone from my comfortable life where I mess around, have lots of fun with my pals and, of course, write many essays, to a point where life is about to change and might get a tad scary!
My dream one day is to be a Secondary School English teacher. That’s what I’m aspiring to be. But actually, life is way more than ‘what I’m going to do after university’. It’s about growing in yourself, growing your identity and ultimately loving who you have been made to be! The most exciting thing I constantly discover is how God is using me in other’s lives, understanding what my giftings are and how I can use these to help others. I am LOVING learning about myself and I believe this will continue to happen, which is so fun!
But, I fear that my primary school nickname of ‘Worrying White’ might come back soon as I am still nervous about the future; I regularly doubt myself and my abilities. Am I meant to be a teacher? If so, will I be good enough? Do I have the strength each day to appear extroverted in front of a bunch of teenagers, whereas inside I’m longing to be back in bed by myself, away from the world? However, these thoughts are silly. Because, ultimately, I need to trust in the ‘Big G’ as He has a plan for my life and I don’t need to fear, for each random situation that life has thrown my way has made me the person I am today and will help me in any future job I may have. He planned it all long ago!
What I’m trying to say is, if life seems rather daunting and you don’t know what decision to make, just believe in yourself. As Winnie the Pooh says, “You’re braver than you believe, stronger than you seem and smarter than you think.” LISTEN TO MR POOH! He knows what he’s talking about! And, all of those people in life’s box of chocolates are there to help you within all of this.
Also, if you’re struggling with the thought of the future, think about what your motivation is for getting up each day. Mine has always been this: To show God’s love by bringing joy to someone’s day and make at least one person smile. So, have a think about what yours might be and how you can fit that motivation into your life.
You can do it. You really can. Just smile, hold your head up and crack on. You’ll be great. 🙂
“Live with what you have now and make the best of what’s to come.” – Phillip Phillips, ‘Tell Me A Story’.